*yawn*

The Change Starts with Me

this is inspired by my peoples' history's past, present, and future

The Change Starts with Me

People say that I am "FREE"
Because I live the "American Dream"
I go to college
And I am the "model minority"

But why is it then
That I feel trapped and confined
In the mind of the elite
Who I need to defeat?

Because I do not want to play this game
Of hide and go seek
Because I refuse to be a pawn in their game
Where they pick on my mistakes

Because I'm trying to keep my sanity
And be free from the profanity
That leaks from the lips
Of those who speak with insanity

And I say,
"Fight the POWER"
Raise up your fists
And join the league

Because we need to band together
As one big community
And gather in unity
To take back our pride and our sanctity

We can not be broken down
Or beaten down
We need to fight back
And take back what's ours

But without the violence
Because there is no need to stoop to their level
Because we are better than that
And to fight the struggle

We will use our words and our actions
Because that is what will prevail
And that's where our changes will be made
Because we will take a stand

And no longer will we be put down
Because of our brown and yellow skin
This is the heritage from our
Past and present kin

And we will embrace our past
NOT be ashamed of it
Because it was forced upon us
And the situation was life or death

And when they were through with us
We were left with a temporary PASS
Into this country

Where we were deemed "unfit"
And "unassimilable"
Where hard work is SUPPOSED
To help us

Then why is it that our people
Still live off of welfare
And live without healthcare
And now nobody else cares

When now we are being cast aside
Monolingual and being sent back
To a country where we
Have no roots and can not survive

And why can't they understand
When we take a stand
That all we want is
Respect and Equality

I will tell you now
That I will start the fight
To make a change
So that once again

I can be high on life
And not because I take the drugs
Or the life that
They try to impose on me

But be high on the fact
That the change started with me
And I will spread
And infect my community

To make a change
And change the face of this place called
"The Land of the Free"
And no longer be afraid

Because the power of the people
Lies within themselves
And once it is revealed
It never again be concealed

it's making me crazy...

not me in particular, but i thought it would be a catchy title. i was out late last night. which was cool, but i didn't wake up til, maybe like 10 mins ago. gosh, going out late makes an old person feel older. i need my 8 hours of sleep. and i got it. but now i feel like my day is half over. which is okay. i was hanging out with my favorite youngin' and a new friend. so it was cool. we're all on the not very talkative side, which is kinda weird cuz i talk a lot, the youngin talks a lot, and from what the youngin say, the other talks a lot too. whatever. it was fun to hang out. i like when we hang out cuz i get some good laughs and if we do talk, advice in.

it's funny. lately i've been talkin to people about relationships. which is funny cuz i've never had a very successful one. but i sure as hell know how to avoid crazy ones from now on. it's interesting how some people are in relationship after relationship after relationship and don't know what to do when they're single. having single status is very different than being with someone and being single for like, a week. the single life, as is the relationship life, has it's drawbacks. you get to appreciate being on your own. no one to call you 24/7, and being able to do what you want to do. it's like a self-discovery period. you find out what you like to do, what you don't like, and etc. the drawbacks are obvious, you're lonely and can become bitter or jealous of other people's relationships. which only makes sense because we're all human and we want to be loved by someone. or to love someone back. i loved being in the relationships that i was in, but they were all tragic and i'm not ready to walk down that road again. sure i have times where i'm attracted to someone, but as soon as the commitment thing comes in, i'm out the door. but that's just me.

on the secondhand, relationships are all about risk. no matter what anyone says, you gotta go with your gut instinct. that's usuallly (85%) of the time correct. sometimes there's no logical reason for why someone comes into your life or why someone leaves. the balance of heart and head is a challenge. millions of people battle it everyday. just remember that love is not to be confused with lust or infatuation. sometimes our hearts get ahead of itself and tricks our brain into thinking that we wanted something that never existed.

Meg & Dia

AWESOME BAND! AND I'M NOT A BIGGER ROCKER. BUT THEY'RE TIGHT.

ROCK OUT!

enlightenment

did i spell that right? well, i don't give a fuck if it's wrong. life is filled with epiphanies and life changing moments. i haven't had one yet. i went to go hang out with my best friend today. we had a drink at a bar. she was telling me that i have a butterfly personality. as in social butterfly. like i like to hang out with all different types of people at different points in my life. and to an extent that true. i guess like life, my personal life changes with the wind. and it's not necessarily a bad thing. life is just full of surprises. and i kinda just take it as it is. no need to stress about it anymore. it's not worth it. so i'm just gonna be me.

the last few days have been cool. just catching up with my guy best friend and my girl best friend. it's weird. we're all so busy that we see each other when we see each other. the thing i love most is that we're all on the same level in life. not choices but the points. like school and career. the other cool thing is even though we haven't seen each other in months, we just pick up where we left off. as if time were in a standstill. those are the best.

today and the last few days have been cool. just been on the grind workin them dollas and tryin to make ends meet. i went to dinner with rubi tonight. she has got to be the most mature 19 year old i know. she makes good points and is straight up with me. that's what i respect the most. that she's upfront and doesn't hide shit. and it sucks to hear it sometimes, but shit, truth hurts. she said that i'm eager to be in a relationship. it's true. i am an eager beaver. i have my whole life ahead of me, but i still seek companionship. but she's right. chill off of it and i'll live a better life. i'm gonna try it.

tonight was the first night in a while where i just chilled at a bar, had a drink and talked. i talked with my best friend for like 2 or 3 hours. it was dope. i miss her. hopefully we'll get to chill more. i saw a hot chick. but she became so not hot when she was drunk and yelling. NOT CUTE.

anyways, time for bed. it's 1 am. and i gotta be at work at 7:30am. catch up with y'all later. feel free to make comments or holla.

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